Realizations
Apparently I’m pretty fucked up. At least, that’s what they tell me.. “Your attitude towards drugs is scary.” But I think I see a point.. I’m not sure. But maybe..
Well, I have been trying a lot of new stuff within the past month..
- LSD
- Ketamine
- Cocaine
- Amphetamine
- Fantasy
- Poppers
- MDMA
- Methylone
That’s 8 different drugs within 4 weeks… 2 new drugs every week.. I guess that’s pushing it a little. I guess I have the rest of my life to try it all, and I shouldn’t be in a rush, but I’m just in constant fear of not having enough time.
The past month has passed by extremely fast! It’s like it was just gone in a second! I don’t really know what happened.. I remember everything, but it’s like I haven’t really been a part of it… Or.. Well. I know I have been a part of it, but the fact that it just disappeared like that makes me wonder if I got enough out of the time passed..
My flirt made me promise to cut back on drugs. This means nothing but psychedelics once in a while.. We’re planning on buying a lot of LSD one of the following days, which should be fun fun fun! Oh, and of course I’m not planning on doing psychedelics all the time.. I wouldn’t even be able to do that. I guess I’d go insane ^^
On another note.. He says he loves me. That’s a big step. He’s got the keys for my apartment as well, so I guess it looks like it’s getting kind of serious. I’m not sure though… He has serious commitment problems, and won’t put the “relationship” label on it… He’s such a guy in that way… And I HATE myself for always finding guys like that… So fucking typical me!!!
One does crazy things when on drugs
It’s monday afternoon. I just woke up from what is probably the craziest weekend for a long long time!
It all started thursday. I hadn’t been taking my meds for some time, since I had plans to try some shrooms with some friends. I had really been looking forward to trying this, however our dealer suddenly backed out. Douche! We decided to try some 2cb since this was available, but on the way to get it we were offered LSD! We quickly decided that LSD was a far better option – so we did it!
It was amazing. It’s like I don’t remember much from my trip, even though I don’t think I’ve forgotten much. Time slowed down and everything just felt amazing. Colour occured, and at a point my hans looked like baby hands! (more…)
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